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Too tired

Posted by Shae Hadden on 10/20/06

It’s the battle cry of couch potatoes everywhere: “I’m too tired to do anything but watch TV.”

The secret language of couples that says so much more: “Not now, honey, I’m too tired…”

Parent’s pat excuse for eating fast food: “Let’s order take-out tonight. I’m too tired to cook…”

Employees incessant murmur: “I wish I could retire…I am so tired of this bullshit….”

With all this tiredness going around, why is there such a demand for over-the-counter sedatives and prescription sleeping pills? In 2002, the American Insomnia Association website revealed that a third of American adults experience insomnia, and 10% have chronic insomnia. Why are so many exhausted and yet unable to sleep?

We could account for it with the increasing daily stresses we encounter in our society. Or the seemingly pervasive fear that threatens our safety and wellbeing. Or our growing list of commitments, including the need to earn more so we can buy more, have more than our neighbours, and appear to be more comfortable. No wonder we’re tired…sounds like we’re being nailed into our coffins while still alive.

“And for tired eyes every light is too bright, and for tired lips every breath too heavy, and for tired ears every word too much.”
—Georg Büchner

And yet, some people do not share this inexplicable desire of the majority to just lie down, give in to it all, and be entertained by the daily pap. These strange beings (and they are indeed strange, for they don’t know the results of yesterday’s baseball game, let alone the late-breaking news) seem to be more like Energizer bunnies than human beings…they just keep going and going. Doing so much more than their colleagues…they really look like they’re living life to the max and having fun while they’re doing it. What’s their secret? I don’t think it’s some miracle drug or the latest craze in motivational self-help models (a la The Secret).

I gained some insight into this today while talking with a middle-aged woman about what her ‘best life’ would look like. I was interested to hear what she had to say, because she never looks tired, she’s always trim and fit (without working out and yet she eats a lot of food, anything she wants in fact) and she’s always got a serene smile on her face. Rather than focusing on what she would do in her ‘best life’, she told me that she’s living her best life now: she simply accepts what is and who people are, and then makes choices that are in alignment with what she’s passionate about. She’s living life as if this is the life she chose, with gratitude for everything and everyone that appears.

I decided today that I’m tired of being tired. And that the cure is easier than I thought.

Perhaps all I have to do is love my life—to choose based on my personal vision and accept whatever appears—and to love myself just as I am. An imperfect, not so glamorous 45-year-old woman, an idealistic, naïve human being who sometimes makes a difference in the world.

But accepting and loving myself as I am…that’s an awful lot of work. And I’m tired tonight. Perhaps if I just get some more rest….did you say “Six Feet Under” is on again?


One Response to “Too tired”

  1. Terri said

    Hi there….I found your blog on Ronni’s and came here to send you an email, but I’m unable to find an address.
    I just wanted to give you a “bravo” to your comment on her blog, about the self-fulling prophecy and growing older. I commend you for that, but will refrain from saying more here on your public comments. Great blog, by the way….and I’ll definitely spend some time checking it out.

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